It’s been ages since the last one. I guess I’ve been fixing my life to get a better one. Searched an tried to get a new half of me and it slowly sucking the life and the confident out of me. The feeling that I’m not good enough for them, eating my soul deeply. But then I realized, it’s not me. It’s just I loved the wrong ones. The condition that I put myself on, went to clubs like 5 days a week, drinking, smoking, yeahhh I was a little lost back then, it made people judge me and the people who came around just as lost as me. Not everyone, but most of them. Then I started to fix myself, to love myself, to chase my dreams. I want people love me for what I have and whay they see in me. A woman who love herself and has something to proud of. A dream, a passion and love inside of me. Starting to do what I love the most, dancing. Try to work from the bottom and building a career for myself. And the best part is that, I have someone who see all the flaws in me and still stay and fight for me, for who I really am. I don’t need to convince him that I’m good enough because he already knows it. Sometimes, circumstances change itself because you change too. Yet, I still need to work on things, my bad habits, attitudes, and stuffs but I’m glad he knows it and supports me. He is not handsome, he is not rich, he is not perfect either. But who needs all of that when you have someone who loves you for who you are, what you are and what you gonna be? It’s not a perfect relationship. We fight like a lot, but I know that we’re moving on to be better for each other. I guess, that enough for me. In fact, that’s all I ever wanted. I really grateful that I found him. No. The truth is he found me. He watched me, cared for me from distance, and now he’s beside me. And I’m not gonna take him for granted. Who needs all the perfect life, when you can create your own life and feel really happy about it?
Feeling blesses, xoxo
Ps: I love you half soul, Mr. C
— (via saintgermain-xo)
You must learn her.
You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.
You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.
And, this is how you keep her."
— Junot Díaz, This Is How You Lose Her (via quotes-shape-us)